Although the song is about a husband and father stepping up and letting God lead him to be the spiritual leader of his home, it has helped open my eyes to the numerous shortcomings that I face on the journey to becoming a Godly, submissive wife and mother.
The past four years of marriage haven't always been pretty in this palace. We might look like the perfect family, which is mainly because my princesses are picture perfect. BUT it wasn't too long ago that we were facing some hard times.
You see patience, understanding, and letting someone else take the lead do not come easy for me. I want to lead! I want control! These traits have caused major downfalls in my family's lives. Thank God for forgiveness and mercy though, right?
So these traits that I have on top of getting married and immediately starting a family have not always mixed well. Impatience on top of crazy pregnancy and postpartum hormones is just a disaster waiting to happen. So by the time my youngest princess was a year old, you could just say I WAS OUT OF CONTROL!
Yes, I made up every excuse in the book. I am snapping at my husband, because the princesses are driving me crazy today. I don't feel good, because I was up all night with a sick princess. I'm mad at you, because you forgot to take the trash out and I would never stoop so low as to take on a chore like that. After about three years of those excuses, I began to realize that I had become a very self-centered person. Actually, it wasn't me that realized it. My extremely patient, loving husband and God helped me to see the selfishness that had overcome me.
I began to faithfully read the Word again, because of course I had stopped and didn't have time with the princesses and all. I once again found a relationship with my Creator that I had lost amongst the clutter that I had allowed to fill up my life. I finally began to dig myself out of the pit of depression that I was neck-deep in. Basically, I took control from the devil and turned it all over to God. I have found that I can be a strong woman, and still be the wife and mother that God has created me to be. God has totally transformed the resentment that had built up inside me and he has formed lots of thankfulness and some patience and gobs of happiness and abundant love in me once again.
Today, I am proud to say that I am celebrating 4 incredible years of marriage to my man. You might be thinking, "Incredible? It sounds as if your marriage has been terrible so far!" And I would tell you that marriage and motherhood have NEVER been terrible! What has been terrible is my selfishness and pride!
So on this Thursday I am thankful! I am thankful for God's unfailing love and mercy in my life! I am thankful for the gift and calling of motherhood! To see my princesses living faithful, Godly lives is my highest calling!
I am MOST thankful today for my AMAZING husband! The past 4 years have been an incredible journey that I would take again in a heartbeat!
Proverbs 12:4 tells us, "A wife of noble character is her husband's crown, but a disgraceful wife is like decay in his bones." I don't know about y'all, but I am striving everyday to be the noble and virtuous wife that my husband needs!
Justin, you are my everything and I am so grateful for a Godly husband who is doing an incredible job of leading me and the princesses spiritually in our palace! I'm so excited about spending the rest of my life with you!
And thank you God for continually being my portion...
Happy Anniversary to us!!!
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